So, it’s been a little bit since I’ve done some art. (My art is all done on my phone, and IPhone 15 pro with a copper-tipped stylus and using Procreate Pocket)
If you would like prints of this or any of my artwork (click here to see more), just contact me on any of my social media pages and we work something out.
I’ve been in a little bit of a funk since the end of March due to a sucky situation that just got more and more sucky. I’m going to be recording and posting a video about one of the events that really made that time so difficult. Late March I dealt with one of the worst instances of medical gaslighting Ive ever dealt with at the local ER, and I will be explaining what happened, because part of me still can’t believe it.
I’m also going to be posting a fun blooper video at same time cuz I think it’ll be a nice balance lol.
And here’s a bonus image that I finished last month.
A year ago, on April 24th 2024 (4/24/24 for us Americans) I stumbled upon Ren. Here’s a video of me and my sister talking about that and touching on what that has meant to us.
To elaborate more on my art and the inspiration I got from Ren- around 2016/7 I realized how (due to my body) uncomfortable it was for me to do art the traditional way, and drawing straight lines was out of the question so I got frustrated and stopped doing art altogether- about 6 months after I found Ren, I was talking to a fellow RENegade and they mentioned that they were hoping to get an IPad to do some art, well, for some reason that got me thinking, I just got a larger phone, what if I tried using a stylus and tried out some drawing apps? I knew I could hold up my phone easily while laying in bed so it might actually be an accessible way for me to draw.. and if Ren could write all those songs while feeling like he was on his deathbed, I owed it to myself to at least try to see what I could do.. I got a cheap stylus on Amazon and the next day, I tried to do a quick sketch and used my reference image to map out where to do my lines and zoomed in and out and sent the fast sketch to my sis and bff..
When Liz said something along the lines of “wait, did you draw that?!” I got a rush of excitement. And very quickly finished my first real piece of art in about 8 years.
It felt like a religious experience to realize I could actually create something and it not feel incredibly difficult or uncomfortable. I cried before even sending it or posting it… but when I did share it, the crying only intensified. I felt like I had never felt so seen in my life up until that point. A month later, the man himself saw and shared that piece of art on his Instagram stories and that helped thousands of people see my art and I can’t even describe that feeling..
I could never thank Ren enough for everything he has done to spark inspiration in me and so many others.
That spark of inspiration doesn’t just stop at art though, something else that he has help me and others with- is hope, is feeling like we can actually take back some control of our health, is the knowledge that we aren’t alone in our suffering. There’s so much, I could probably write for hours but I’m sure you get the idea.
It’s been an amazing year of art, inspiration and hope and I can’t wait to spend the rest of my life listening to Ren, however long that may be 😂
Sara Sidewinder 